SWF

I did it. I stepped out into the market... no not those internet sites. I simply just expanded my inner peace. I have made a movement of letting go of the past that has weighed me down from even making a great effort to want to date. I don't think I even knew how much I let my "skeleton's" hold me back, and possibly admitting that I actually loved the guy I was with for the past few years. As much garbage that we went thru together and sometimes what I endured solely at his benefit I denied the negative impact that the relationship put on me. Even after I nominated a mutual split, I couldn't take down the pictures of "us" I still would answer his calls when he called and run to his aid short of over-extending myself. Yes, Ladies and Gentlemen I found a user, but a user of the worst kind... One who had done it for so long they were unaware of their deceptive actions.
I went out Saturday night (my first time in a very long time... no I wont disclose how long) and although the club was a horrible scene it renewed a sense in me that I could really, really put forward the advise of my therapist and move both feet into today. I am confident that something better awaits and I am excited to be me and not worry about the exposed past.
I am every bit worth what I have to offer in return, no tricks, no lies... this is me.
I am a mother, a leader, a friend, a listener, a comforter, a comedian (well to some people) and much more. Now bring on the Boys!!!!