Thansksgiving is all year long

I wanted to take this time to be sappy and grateful for all my wonderful blessings in my life, but this year alone has been a life changing year for me. I thought it was going to be life changing just because I turned 31, and a person feels like things should be progressing and really moving along when you hit the milestone over 30 like that.

For the most part I let my year get lost, I let things just "be".
Then I woke up and I have struggled the most this year than I feel I ever have, but it was all worth it. To feel what I feel, to know what I know.
I have a friend who suggests that people write things down on paper, well this is going to be my paper.. here is a list of my blessings, my accomplishments, my loves and joys, my truth, faith and heart.

I am humbly grateful for:

Kace and Cris- 2 amazing children that I was blessed to be given to me by the great lord. Who tell me every morning I am beautiful, who compliment me, who when they snap at me, come back quickly and apologize because they care about my feelings, who are a great example to me and keep me going strong.

My brothers - thank you for the good, comfortable and spiritual talks. the dropping everything to help me move, to give me a blessing, to call me and ask me how I am doing. I feel closer to you all, and forever grateful for how wonderful each and everyone of you are to me and to the boys. I cant say this enough, you are the most amazing brothers and I think this is just the beginning.

My sisters - Your examples and strengths surpass me, to send me emails, keep me in the loop and just give off the motherly, caring love that you do. I enjoy being able to catch up with you on blog's and emails. I dont want to use life and distance as an excuse to not spend more time with you, to talk with you, to share and laugh with you. I love you both very much.

My sister-in-laws - my brothers have wives just as amazing as them, if not more than. Thank you for your patience, understanding and willingness to help out where you can. I adore each and everyone one of you and so glad you are a part of this family. You all have something amazing to bring to me. I love you.

My mother - Who knows I can be quiet the handful and even heartache and worry, you still take me in, hold me up and make sure I am ready to walk back out that door again ready for the next day and what it might bring. You are simply there EVERY time I need you, EVERY time I fall, you are picking me up. I love spending time with you, sharing conversations, interests and time with you.

Agustin - I am so grateful for how we can converse about more than just the boys, that you show genuine concern with my family and provide me with updates about yours, to support me, offer help where you can and mostly for just understanding and being so great as I struggle. You make it more than about the boys and they have a terrific father.

I am blessed with:

My home - just perfect for the boys and I. We have found a place we can hang our hats and be comfortable. The kids can walk to school, have great neighbors and a pretty cool landlord.

My car - that gets amazing gas mileage and has helped me through this gas price shock. That doesnt cost much in repairs, and is low maintenance (thank goodness because I feel I am high maintenance enough)

My job- To work with normal people, not money-hungry materialistic snobs, to be able to help people that need it, to look forward to going to work every day. To just simply have a job when so many are losing theirs, And the health insurance is great!

My Health - to not have any health concerns, not a hint of a cold, to be able to continually keep moving, getting in shape and staying more fit and active for the boys and I.

The Church- For being able to have a place where I feel so comfortable, to have the truth that I was blessed to be born with. The support, the love and the knowledge that is ever growing.

My biggest accomplishment this year was that I stepped outside of the box I was living in, I took the knowledge of knowing how mentally challenging it was for me and I broke free. I couldnt be more happy, more grateful, more ready for the new tomorrows that I now have, the possibilities that I shut out before. All the struggles, the challenges, the stress was worth it for this moment to sit here and reflect on such an amazing year, to take the good and the bad and make it what it is now and what is still left to come.