I thought I would never say that to the guy who has helped make me money, but OMG.
I hadn't told my boss that I wasn't going to transfer to the other office (out of state)I had been thinking about it and pondering it for about a week... I finally decided that I was indeed going to take the severance and not go to the other office. I don't have a permanent residence as of yet, my kids are going to school in a school district that I have to drive them to everyday. Things on my personal side just feel "chaotic" to me....add in the changes here at work and I am out of my mind.
I am going to take a few weeks... month off.. than I will look to fill my bank account back up again, but I am burnt out and need this break... to get my shit together to where I feel I can function in a good manner.
So I told "wish" (that is what I call my boss) that I was not going to the other location with him. He was short and curt in his responses, as if he already knew from someone else... he was pissed. I want to say this is his defense mechanism, but I think it is caddy and childish to act this way... we are on day 2 of me telling him and he hasn't said anything to me, he will converse with the other people in the office and talk to them...said good morning and all but I got nothing! He has to walk by my office to go to his, I always leave my door open. Even when I went into his office to discuss a scenario of a client it took him literally 1 full minute to acknowledge me and he was short and matter of factly.
God, grow up... we have worked together for 5 years, we are a team, every time someone talks to me... they bring "wish" up in the conversation ... people inquire about him because they know we work so well together.
I know he is hurt and I didn't give him a lot of notice, but that part came hard to do when they didn't give us a lot of notice about closing this office. I did it in person... I imagined it being a good heart to heart, I imagined him fighting just a little bit for me to stay... even though I could be replaced it is hard to find someone you work well with. I imagined him understanding and offering his help in anyway to help me feel more confident about this.
I got nothing.
Truth be told the minute I told him and walked out of his office yesterday I felt a huge relief, I felt really good and half my stress was gone in an instant. I also felt the conversation could have gone better and I wanted to tell (explain) to him more, but he was so short and didn't ask anything... all night I thought about how today would go, if he would talk to me...what I would say that would help clarify yesterdays events. I guess I know now how that is working out for him.
Regardless, I feel good about my decision and sticking to it, but I just think we could work together for the next week like nothing has changed.... make it worth our while and really go down in a good way. It only makes me want to take the last week as sick or vacation pay.... such crap.
2013. Phhhhht!
11 years ago
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thanks for your nice comment, kickenchica (btw: what is the meaning of kicken?).
i truly believe every man would splash roses on a woman's home if he knew he could make her 'melt' this way. speaking for myself, this seems to be the problem. you never know what she likes.
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